YAY PICTURES

Hello, this is just going to be an update about the stuff going on in my life photography wise.

1. I am so frustrated with cmail, it has been down the past couple days and I haven't been able to get on to do anything or contact anyone. I had to send the ice hockey guy a Facebook message, jeez.

2. The Stir Ice Hockey story is unfortunately not going to work out. I talked to the guy on the team writing the article and he said their season is already over which means there are no future opportunities to take pictures. However, they already have some that someone else took of their games. So he's all set. He was really nice about it though, it's just kind of sad. I was excited about it.

3. I went to the website for T&G and looked at all their contact information and got really intimidated. They have lots of sports staff and photographers listed and it scared me. Because I know that my pictures are good, especially considering what camera I'm using and that I'm only a college student. But does that really make them good in the real world and more valuable than pictures they can already get from people on their staff? You know? They already have people they're paying to go out and take pictures for them - so why would they need me? And if I do send something to either the sports or photography staff - what exactly do I say? Because if I say that I saw their picture from the game Monday which I was also taking pictures at and I have some that are just as good - do I sound cocky? Because I feel like that would not be a good way to start off. But then again if I'm not confident enough they won't believe that I can do it or that I'm good enough. You know? Herein lies my dilemma. And do I ask if they want to use some of my pictures or do I ask if they have an intern position open or ... ? I'm not really sure how all of this works. I have so many questions. I just don't want to say the wrong thing to start off with and then ruin any chances I have at working for them. Because I still do have 3 years left in Worcester so that'd be a pretty decent job to potentially have. However, as you can see - just like at games, I'm not confident enough or pushy enough. And I know those are qualities you need to have to succeed in the real world because I'm going to have to fight for a job or what I want but I guess I'm just scared. I don't know if I'm ready for a real job with deadlines and assignments. What if I did horribly at an assignment? I mean I haven't shot every sport before and sometimes it doesn't turn out too well. And it's one thing when I'm taking them for class or for my own personal experience/benefit but if I'm getting paid to do it and I'm failing... ahhh. And my camera isn't exactly advanced either but I don't know if they let you use their equipment? And then there's transportation issues because I don't drive and cabs are too much and I have no idea how the bus system works. It's just like all these things that I'm scared aren't going to work before I even get any opportunity. I don't even why I'm thinking about all of this now. I guess it's just because I am shooting the same thing that they're shooting - the Clark tournament. Sadly, I don't have any pictures for you at the moment to post on my blog because I wanted to see what everyone in class responded too first before I converted them to jpegs. So hopefully I will have a few up for this weekend? Even though everyone in class has already seen them and everyone at home who reads my blog is coming to visit and could just look at my contact sheets.

4. I'm going to see the gallery this weekend, finally. I'm excited. I hope that makes me feel more confident about everything.

I'm going to go now. I have to eat something before class because I think I'm going to another game right after class. Sorry for the length of this one, I just needed to get this all out I guess.